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Like I needed to be more dense. Ironic, isn’t it? The odd thing about the course of my life is it hasn’t meant anything up until now. Recently I’ve come across the idea that there are agreements that make up language and meanings and feelings and actions that come out of that. These agreements are largely communal. They come from your parents and your friends and family. They are not structured to change. The only time anyone ever recognizes a change is when they leave everything behind not knowing if they will survive, succeed, or triumph, or perish, fail, or lose all the while knowing that they cannot go back. On the way to college, I still knew many people and things were familiar. I still lived at home and I hardly changed my habits. There was no consequence, no judgement for my behavior other than the overall ambiguous quality in the things I turned in based on a rubric no one has really explained or expounded upon directly with consequences and rules specific to each clause in that rubric, something ambiguous since middle school and even a little before.
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Tenacity

You know why you make mistakes don’t you? I’d say you know less than you think you do. Challenge yourself to see more, to do more, to act in ways that bring you to the forefront of technology and science instead of listening to science as a religious word, or scripture. Schools are the reason we err. According to Kathryn Schulz to err comes from the word to move, and making mistakes really do get us going. In college I screw up. In high school, I screwed up too. These things tied me to my work and kept me going. There shouldn’t have to be so much error inherent to life to keep us going.
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3D Projection Project Explained

I’m heading out in search of what the next step in entertainment will be. It will be whole new era. Soon, people will wonder how to even operate a tv. People will wonder why anyone even bothered to make holographic 3D TVs in the first place. I think critically about what it took to capture image and try to apply this knowledge to making objects and form with a force behind it. I explore cymatics and color theory as an interesting first step on this interesting new pursuit in my life.Views of the Trifid Nebula (Messier 20)
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I’m dying in box of my own volition, expanding and going no where at the same time. That makes life a struggle for survival. To survive I have to eat; I have to sleep. I can’t just go outside without clothes. So you see there are things I have to pay for. As ugly as I am, I need cloths to appease other people’s sensibilities. I live in a place where the weather is nice all year. As cold as it gets, here it never drops below freezing. I have to spend money on clothes and money on things to clean them. They only get dirty because I’m alive. A lot of times, I’m sure life would be easier if I was dead, not suicide, just, not alive, dead but alive, maybe a ghost, or a vampire. Don’t like my sanity? Why is the opposite so appealing? I can write about simple things and complicated things and make them invert. Simplicity becomes beautifully complex like the way a bee’s wings move through the air making it disproportionately large body lighter than air. Complex things seem simple like the actions in the brain. Still, why do you prefer the things that are so toxic in high doses? It’s so passive, so uninvolved: it’s porn from where I stand, so ugly once you’ve had your fix, and yet — you still come back, to read some more. I wandered through my dreams once. You’ll enjoy this story though you’ll never dream it yourself. Are you sure you still want to read? As I wandered, I wanted to have a conquest in my youth. My dreams do come true when I sleep. I passed up the first few I saw, and then I spied a woman, tall and slender with an elegant stride. The kind you’re not imagining for the words are enough. They satisfy your need for noise. Her hips rolled as she walked but ever so slightly. I could just grab her and make her mine. Just listen to that echo throughout your mind, “Grab her and make her mine”, over and over again. You’ll never see it because you’ll never dream. The noise just echos. It makes it hard to heal. The sound drowns all the voices that tell you how to love.

The outlet of the Karlsruhe sewage treatment p...

The outlet of the Karlsruhe sewage treatment plant flows into the Alb. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Noise is the opposite of clarity, created by a lack of focus or attention. by picking a detail, we can organize noise in our minds and create, in effect, music. There are sound that work well with water, and there are sounds that make water dissonant. Classical music works to form beautiful memories within the water that reveal themselves when they are frozen or inspected with a strong microscope. Research done at the aerospace institute in Struttgard, Germany reveals that water retains an imprint of everything that comes in contact with it, the more recent have the most obvious effects, but there is no indication that ancient information isn’t at least partially responsible for some of the small little imperfections (ODEwire.com). The brain needs fluids to function. Analysis of Einstein’s brain revealed that he had more capillaries than a man of average intellect (superconscious1.blogspot.com). Everyday, the brain is influenced by the water one drinks. Even water that is has been treated at a sewage treatment plant still affects the thoughts people have. Imagine bathing in chlorine and other harsh chemicals. While water is much safer than chlorine, the body still becomes associated with these harsh chemical memories.

Water ball

Water ball (Photo credit: @Doug88888)

It’s equivalent to the memory of a chemical burn. That stays with you drives you. The imprint burned, seared into your flesh. The reminder is still there. What about all the fluoride, the main ingredient in both toothpaste and rat poison? People use toothpaste around water, and that leaves a toxic memory lingering in the water you drink. While there are many forms of noise, and most of them are equivalent to pollution, either of the mind, the body, the soul or the environment, from toxic water, to polluted energy fields full of extremely low-frequency waves (ELF) and microwave emissions, running scared isn’t going to change it, and it isn’t going to make it go away. The way to eliminate pollution isn’t punishing people and settling debts. We do this by imprisoning and fining people, something which before replaced hanging and public executions as the reasonable form of punishment. We can overcome pollution by giving people the choice for the reason that people deserve to feel joy by their own decisions. You may feel the need to lie or cheat or steal, but if you’re going to, do it to me. If you’re right then I’ll benefit as well. If you’re wrong, I’ll understand and give you more. This feeling of trust and sincerity opens up the path toward joy and abundance.

Works cited

http://odewire.com/170441/scientists-investigate-water-memory.html
http://superconscious1.blogspot.com/2008/01/boosting-your-brain-power.html

Noise is just as enthralling as form. Noise is form we cannot comprehend. Noise prevents any communication. In order to communicate we must first eliminate noise. The brain communicates to the body. The brain tells the body where to go what to do what to think, and what to send back. It is totally possible for the brain to not notice sensations. The brain can have no category by which we remember our dreams and it becomes hazy. When the sensation is perfect is memorable. The form is organized and it can recommunicate and express itself. If not it is noise.  As well as things that lack communication, things that are lower frequency act as noise unless we fully immerse ourselves within that and cut ourselves off from higher frequency. This is a fundamental ability of the brain. For instance, there are seven colors, seven tones, which don’t go away. It is possible to train the brain to only look at one of those within the seven recognizable vibrations. You could pick read and re-invent yourself. Eventually it would be possible to recognize colors within red. Since audible frequency and visual frequency are both frequency the names are interchangeable. Do on audible spectrum is equivalent to red, and the converse is true. Ti on the audible spectrum is equivalent to violet. However, this is rare because people are used to and will continue to create in a larger range. Exposure to this range is probable and will reverse the effects unless the brain becomes accustomed to this new way of thinking. Noise is unpleasant when there is form. Why watch snow on tv when you can watch cartoons. The exception being those who want to understand noise. These people are captivated by noise and disruption. They want to give it form. Rock, Metal, and House music, dubstep, and techno, are expressions of noise. Water is exposed to this and quickly frozen so that crystals form, the crystals created by these forms are less structured than the patterns created by classical music. Noise can have adverse effects on people, but this won’t prevent it from being captivating.

the Brain Preliminary

There are few things one must know preliminary to studying the brain against other things. The faculties within the brain function because of two components. There is active memory and there is long-term memory. Active memory decays usually around seven to nine entries. This is not limited to the size of the entries. Their range is nearly unlimited, but their average can range from a single number to a single word, to a list of words, to entire events, scenes, lifetimes. The active memory in effect is taking picture of the rest of the brain and comparing it to itself as it changes, signalling difference and varying in scope. It can expand and contract it scope. One concept, something relatively small when fitted into the entire possible number of details totally possible in the universe can occupy all the components of the mind. To begin to grasp this idea, think of a cat. On this cat there lots of parts like eyes, legs, whiskers, and so on. If you were instead realize with more intensity that there are hairs that make up the fur or cells that make up the cat, it is totally possible to become completely enthralled with a single tiny aspect without losing depth, and range. The only difference is a person who looks at only one tiny individual idea will seem incomprehensible to other people. If all the parts of the brain are still available, that incomprehensible person does not lose any information. The greatest principle behind the brain is that it is not limited by the environment. The environment is a matrix as perceived by the brain. The matrix instead of being made of x and y-axis, it is made up of pictures of chemicals, connections, and glucose consumption, and these are compared to changes made over time and converted to symbols. Our perception is reality, and our reality is made up of perception.

A month or two ago, I published some thing titled Protocol. It was an artsy little piece about how following one form will reveal the most about a path toward success.  In recent weeks I’ve questioned my sanity with this project. I wanted to create and express things. These things were different as I sought to renew ideas and concepts. I wanted to create a new language to explain metaphysics. Like spanish, italian, Japanese, I wanted to create a grammatical structure that required people to think in terms of metaphysics to be correct. In English we are aware of tense and conjugation, but because conjugation is not intrinsic to the endings of the words like in some other languages, anything other than the simple form conjugations are complicated, and there are few people outside of linguistics and English studies who know the rules for these Literary tools for expressing concepts with a flair and a twist to make it seem deeper. I also went on to try to grab people using sexual symbolism, something that often sells; however, both of these things were more potent than people care to tolerate. A language with only one speaker, writing only in that language only appeals to linguists, probably only a few of them.  Sex in itself is an habitual thing. When we first discover it, it is isolated and a category by itself, but it develops into a nuanced form as life grows like a vine around it and through it in all directions.  With the knowledge that I’m not the only one studying this stuff, the things that make people intelligent, I can relax a bit. I can join society. Most of all, I can produce excellent pieces.  I Intend to keep a journal of my little revelations. That’s what this blog will turn into. I’ll try to include all the things that are brilliant and wonderous in little doses, so as not to confuse anyone. over the course of my next stint as a writer I will uncover what It means to be intelligent, and how does one become intelligent.

So you’ve learned the first classification with natural awareness, Duality. You are now aware of your mind in its simplest form. All minds fall somewhere along this spectrum. There are some differences. Some people will act differently or create different pictures at this level; however, in a big picture way, this covers every thought. In a previous post, I explained that the more creative people become, the more similar we will all be. We are exploring this first reality. When we reach the ultimate consciousness, unity, something that comes from creating it and imagining it, then we will all be the same, but we will all be different. We will know exactly what we mean to other people because when we start to create again, we will create duality, then trinity, and so on. we could all be different on these spectrums, but the more we decide to be different and to evolve, the more complicated it will all be. Once we create duality for the second time, this will create the entire range of how different we can be. Another dimension will appear when we desire to be more complicated. This will be trinity, and so on.

For now, we will explore duality, and I’ll leave the rest to you. The map is very easy to read. Once you know how to travel across Zedu, you don’t need me to help you.

Big Picture to Detail

This is where I’m starting. This may not be the kind of mindset you’ll start at, but I’ll make a full circut so you can jump on when I get to you.

Topic: Pyramid
Details: Camel, yellow, triagle, palm tree, oasis, water, sand, turban, sun, yellow, hot, arabs in long white clothing, egypt.

Imagine the Camel moving. It is led by an Egyptian man wearing all white to reflect the hot sun. These clothes are loose-fitting. He walks through the sand. I can’t ignore that huge pyramid. It dominates my entire vision, but I can still see the camel walking and the Egyptian Man walking toward an oasis. Everything I described I can see. The whole picture is now clear. I can see the bricks that make up the giant yellow triangular pyramid. Even though my eyes are open as I’m reading this, I can still see it too. If I close my eyes, the picture of the pyramid is more exciting than the black I see as my eyes are in the shadow of my eyelids, but as my eyes are open, the picture clearly flashes before I chose to go back and interact with the things that I see with my eyes open.

The yellow pyramid stands tall in the huge dunes that sit behind it. The pyramid appears twice the hight of the dune that surrounds it to the right behind me. I can see the bricks, the hight of the man leading the camel, which make up the pyramid.

I’m ignoring these details now. All I can think about now is the triangular shape of the yellow pyramid. Now it’s not even a pyramid. All I see is a yellow triangle dead center in my vision. Behind it, the bright blue sky, is no longer a sky, It is just blue. All I see is a yellow triangle on a blue background.

For me, this triangle is clear in my mind, and I made it all the way to the other side of Mora. Somewhere along this route you should have been able to pick up and join along. If you continue to follow me, you’ll understand what I mean by “become aware” when I referring to a detail.

Detail to Big Picture
You need to have that yellow triangle clear in your mind. Reading it, should have provoked your imagination like it did for “Reading With an Active Mind”. If it didn’t, then go back and read through the whole thing again. If you forgot what the yellow triangle looks like, or it isn’t clear in your mind, then go back and read through the entire step one, “Big picture to Detail”.

Yellow triangle on a blue background.

“Pyramids are yellow. The sky is Blue

Yellow pyramid against a blue sky.

“It is made of stone bricks the size of people. . .”

Yellow stone pyramid against a blue sky

“. . . and Pyramids are in the desert, and the desert is in Egypt, and the Desert where the pyramids are in Egypt there is sand all around. I imagine a sand dune behind the pyramid.”

Yellow stone pyramid against a blue sky in Egypt amongst the sand. There is a dune that appear half the hight of the Yellow stone pyramid, and they both stand tall in my vision against the blue sky.

“I remember that there was a guy wearing loose white clothes, and a wrapped white turban, and he is leading a camel to an oasis.”

I watch as a man in the egyptian desert leads a camel to water. With every step he takes, he sinks slightly in the sand. I notice he left foot prints as he walks. There is a long trail of them, but the wind is blowing, so the trail doesn’t go on too far. The wind blows the loose-fitting white cloths this man is wearing. He grabs onto his turban as he leads the camel to the oasis. I can see it. It’s a pool of blue with palm trees. The camel drinks first as the man unloads his things from the camel.

I notice a box he pulls from his luggage off of the camel. Is brown and made of leather. It is a very sturdy looking box. He sets it on top of a carpet he brought all the way from his home. It has wonderful designs: blue, red, purple, dark grey shapes of all sizes dominate this rug. It’s got triangles and swirling ornamentation. Every shape is lined with golden-yellow.

All I can think of now is that brown box on an ornamented rug. I don’t see the box anymore. All I see is a brown rectangle on top of a pretty background.

I remember that My eyes are closed. I still see the background but the colors now seem darker. The box is still clear as before, but now it’s floating against a dark background.

As you can see, I mad a whole lap from detail to big picture back to detail. It’s very easy to see where people live on this spectrum. Do you see the cup as half full? Half empty? or do you just see a cup with water in it? Do you see the cup with water in it as a crystal glass with diamond shapes decorating the sides, or do you see the diamonds as a pattern that allow you to focus only on the diamond and feel comfortable knowing that you understand the whole cup?

You fit somewhere. Enjoy relating to people more, and exploring your creativity.

Next Week
Some people need to see things in reality more clearly, and some people need to experience more of reality. Next week is about dealing with near-sighted and far-sighted behavior. adding a new dimension to Zedu. Instead of a line, we now have a plane.

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Dear Diary,

I had a dream. This is a rare thing for me. I hardly ever dream. I’m an insomniac with acute narcissism. I obsess over my life so much it just sort of, get’s in the way of my sleeping. I could fix it. I read enough text books on the subject to know exactly what I should do to get over it. It’s not very fun. I’m not going to do it. It would probably fix my eyes too, but bah, I’m not really interested in getting better at this pint. I’m alone, but as long as no one reminds me of how alone that I am, I don’t really get lonely. Still, I decided to and follow this dream, to find this girl, to maybe move on with my life.
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