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Walking on water

There are three ways to separate people: the simple, the people drowning in their complexity, and those who walk on water. The simple stand not knowing or caring how far their legs can take them. Those who drown, realize their legs can take them far but get caught up in the things they cannot do. Those who can are the reason these people continue to try. The metaphor and literal alike are simply done by those with the capacity. Structure allows one to walk on water. Structure allows a water strider to move on the surface tension of water. The social structure a person grows up with allow him to think of much grander things in practicality.
All things relate. I speak in metaphor, but I have in mind a specific idea. Simplicity occurs in the capable and the unaffected. Complexity occurs with unnatural aspirations. If all things relate, the capable are able to see the patterns. Those who drown themselves in complexity cannot very well achieve their goals. The specific concept in mind is the achievement of goals, and if occultist notions and novel ideas require people to wake up and realize the water, walking on water become a miracle, but if natural growth only requires people to see the patterns that are exploitable, then walking on water is only the extension of walking on land as simple as putting one foot in front of the other. Learn to see these things and how they relate. Follow the path that feels exciting while remaining open to messages from other sources. These messages may very well be the key to reveal hidden pathways to metaphorically walking on water.

From my life, I’ve always felt that something was missing. I wanted to just live like everyone else, to make things easier on myself. But living that way made dreaming impossible. I’ve had a hard time falling asleep because there’s so much more to think about. I talk to people, but that’s not enough. I end up having conversations with people about everything, but then I keep having new ones in my head about new and exciting everythings and each aspect needs to be explained because something is missing. This same thing that’s missing is why is started Zedu and Wizard Seed in the first place. Something needed to change. People needed something else to connect, to help them understand in ways that are greater than words.

People are addicted to the words of others. It’s no wonder, words are stimulants just like any other drug. This is completely fiction, but the science is real. If you’d like to understand these words, you need to engage the other half of your brain where all the strong connection are. The other half of the brain is the one you use to break down things. This part undoes all the connections. Unfortunately, without the other half, trust falls apart, people stop growing and you run the same risk that all word leaders have. You are just as powerful as they are, so take it with a degree of freedom and a degree of subjugation. Without both, you can be dangerous.

This is a story about the very same kind of danger. If given the power to manipulate and charm, if given the option to get away with any crime and never have to face punishment or atone, what kind of person would you be? The fear that you would hurt people given the option to lead them stops many people from becoming great. Never the less, we should consider the kind of destruction we can cause and what will heal it. So I give the liberty to explore your passions, to rape and pillage as you please, but when this page closes or you lose sight of this page, you are bound by morality again. This rule is not subject to interpretation nor metaphysical loopholes. If, in any way, a person breaks this imaginative liberty, I am not responsible. You are free to imagine so long as you only imagine. But if you infringe on anyone, you must make it right. This story shows what happens when this pact is broken, and a person gives himself the liberty to hurt people. This story shows one way to make it right and atone, but more importantly, It shows that even the wrong things can become wonderful given the right approach. The conlusion I’ve come to in seduction is people when ignorant of pain, suffering, debt, and ownership – things often true of people with happiness – are able to control and manipulate people and change and destroy things without hurting, manipulating, or really destroying anything.
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You know why you make mistakes don’t you? I’d say you know less than you think you do. Challenge yourself to see more, to do more, to act in ways that bring you to the forefront of technology and science instead of listening to science as a religious word, or scripture. Schools are the reason we err. According to Kathryn Schulz to err comes from the word to move, and making mistakes really do get us going. In college I screw up. In high school, I screwed up too. These things tied me to my work and kept me going. There shouldn’t have to be so much error inherent to life to keep us going.
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I’m dying in box of my own volition, expanding and going no where at the same time. That makes life a struggle for survival. To survive I have to eat; I have to sleep. I can’t just go outside without clothes. So you see there are things I have to pay for. As ugly as I am, I need cloths to appease other people’s sensibilities. I live in a place where the weather is nice all year. As cold as it gets, here it never drops below freezing. I have to spend money on clothes and money on things to clean them. They only get dirty because I’m alive. A lot of times, I’m sure life would be easier if I was dead, not suicide, just, not alive, dead but alive, maybe a ghost, or a vampire. Don’t like my sanity? Why is the opposite so appealing? I can write about simple things and complicated things and make them invert. Simplicity becomes beautifully complex like the way a bee’s wings move through the air making it disproportionately large body lighter than air. Complex things seem simple like the actions in the brain. Still, why do you prefer the things that are so toxic in high doses? It’s so passive, so uninvolved: it’s porn from where I stand, so ugly once you’ve had your fix, and yet — you still come back, to read some more. I wandered through my dreams once. You’ll enjoy this story though you’ll never dream it yourself. Are you sure you still want to read? As I wandered, I wanted to have a conquest in my youth. My dreams do come true when I sleep. I passed up the first few I saw, and then I spied a woman, tall and slender with an elegant stride. The kind you’re not imagining for the words are enough. They satisfy your need for noise. Her hips rolled as she walked but ever so slightly. I could just grab her and make her mine. Just listen to that echo throughout your mind, “Grab her and make her mine”, over and over again. You’ll never see it because you’ll never dream. The noise just echos. It makes it hard to heal. The sound drowns all the voices that tell you how to love.


Noise is just as enthralling as form. Noise is form we cannot comprehend. Noise prevents any communication. In order to communicate we must first eliminate noise. The brain communicates to the body. The brain tells the body where to go what to do what to think, and what to send back. It is totally possible for the brain to not notice sensations. The brain can have no category by which we remember our dreams and it becomes hazy. When the sensation is perfect is memorable. The form is organized and it can recommunicate and express itself. If not it is noise.  As well as things that lack communication, things that are lower frequency act as noise unless we fully immerse ourselves within that and cut ourselves off from higher frequency. This is a fundamental ability of the brain. For instance, there are seven colors, seven tones, which don’t go away. It is possible to train the brain to only look at one of those within the seven recognizable vibrations. You could pick read and re-invent yourself. Eventually it would be possible to recognize colors within red. Since audible frequency and visual frequency are both frequency the names are interchangeable. Do on audible spectrum is equivalent to red, and the converse is true. Ti on the audible spectrum is equivalent to violet. However, this is rare because people are used to and will continue to create in a larger range. Exposure to this range is probable and will reverse the effects unless the brain becomes accustomed to this new way of thinking. Noise is unpleasant when there is form. Why watch snow on tv when you can watch cartoons. The exception being those who want to understand noise. These people are captivated by noise and disruption. They want to give it form. Rock, Metal, and House music, dubstep, and techno, are expressions of noise. Water is exposed to this and quickly frozen so that crystals form, the crystals created by these forms are less structured than the patterns created by classical music. Noise can have adverse effects on people, but this won’t prevent it from being captivating.

the Brain Preliminary

There are few things one must know preliminary to studying the brain against other things. The faculties within the brain function because of two components. There is active memory and there is long-term memory. Active memory decays usually around seven to nine entries. This is not limited to the size of the entries. Their range is nearly unlimited, but their average can range from a single number to a single word, to a list of words, to entire events, scenes, lifetimes. The active memory in effect is taking picture of the rest of the brain and comparing it to itself as it changes, signalling difference and varying in scope. It can expand and contract it scope. One concept, something relatively small when fitted into the entire possible number of details totally possible in the universe can occupy all the components of the mind. To begin to grasp this idea, think of a cat. On this cat there lots of parts like eyes, legs, whiskers, and so on. If you were instead realize with more intensity that there are hairs that make up the fur or cells that make up the cat, it is totally possible to become completely enthralled with a single tiny aspect without losing depth, and range. The only difference is a person who looks at only one tiny individual idea will seem incomprehensible to other people. If all the parts of the brain are still available, that incomprehensible person does not lose any information. The greatest principle behind the brain is that it is not limited by the environment. The environment is a matrix as perceived by the brain. The matrix instead of being made of x and y-axis, it is made up of pictures of chemicals, connections, and glucose consumption, and these are compared to changes made over time and converted to symbols. Our perception is reality, and our reality is made up of perception.

On Zedu, there are many different patterns. Begin with unity, then progress using groups of primes: three, five, seven, thirteen, nineteen, twenty-three. I live within the pentagon the five Zedu relating to the senses creates. I call this Roma. Within it, there is a natural safe space that most people live in. I have no landmarks to refer to, but as I explore, I will find these landmarks that every person can see with their own eyes. Outside of this safe place, the sane are few and scarce. As you progress outside of this safe place, “Mora” I call it, the thoughts grow more demanding. As you progress your thoughts down toward absolute silence, Ja’al, if you do not maintain your attention, your grasp on what exists, you will drown in a sea of visions. Should you travel away from Ja’al past the Ladva that marks the boundary between Mora and Krea, thoughts are much more powerful. If you do not use them wisely, they will destroy you.

I have never left my home in Mora. It means “security” in Zedu. “My attention is not strong enough” my subconscious would tell me if I worked my toward Ja’al, “the eternal-silence”. The reason I cannot get a job, cannot leave my home, cannot find friends that understand me and help me is simple: I do not have “The Mental Influence”, Cru. To get Cru, I would have to start an expedition into Crua, a place that makes legends, the place that all legends are made. The terrors are hardly worth the risk. The only way to ward of these terrors, these insurmountable thoughts, is to obtain Cru. It is a veritable Catch-22, but if I can get it, I can retain my protocol despite threats to my desire, my morality, my ethics — to my attention. It’s scary but I think I can do it.